35 Comes to an End

It’s been a heck of a year so far what with Radio Let Downs, Covid-19, social distancing, back problems resurfacing…and we’re not even halfway through the year yet.

However, I am at the end of another year. I honestly don’t have the proper words to describe everything going on in my head right now. It is quite possible that I am on auto-pilot right now. Maybe this is what happens when you shift in to new states of being, I’m not quite sure. A bit like having to ask someone what they asked you right after you already given a response. Your brain knows it heard something, it comprehended it, but it didn’t retain it or fully understand?

I don’t know. Like I said, no proper words to convey anything right now. Whatever that feeling is, that is the last 5 ish months.

Since I cannot wrap my brain around it fully, I’ll write. I’ll take one step at a time and face a new year and whatever it could bring for me tomorrow. Until then, scribbles of broken thoughts below.

I’m not as strong as I claim to be,
Or as I’d like to be.
But I’m trying.

My armor has seen better days,
It’s dented and cracked.
But I’m still standing.

Nothing has changed,
Things are just different.
Maybe they aren’t the same?

I don’t recognize this place
Or how I got here,
But it reminds me of home.

Write a Comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *